Breathing easier

I can breathe easier these days. I have been given a grace, if you will, that after being beat up and knocked down so many times in the past few years, I get the chance to stand and not be pummeled. I have to say that I am so impressed with myself. And if you know me, you know that I don't usually toot my own horn. But this time, just this once, I will! I came through! I am a single mom of two, a homeowner, a crucial part of a fantastic church, and have family and friends that care deeply about me. I was carried through the worst parts by my God, my family, and my friends. It's not always easy now. In fact, what's funny is that this time of my life is just as hard as some of the other things that I faced. I'm tired. Bone weary most of the time. And I have stressors on my life that want to make me scream some days. But it is sweet. I am blessed enough to hear my kids laugh together in the other room. And fight with each other. My friends call to check on me, not because they are worried, but because they care. They know I'm ok. My mom and dad don't have that look of concern anymore when I'm around. I'm ok. Life is good. I've been out on multiple dates with a guy that I really like, and we really enjoy each other's company. People say that I have a smile on my face every time I mention him. That's good. I understand just how much grace I have been given. I came through something horrible and it's been turned into something beautiful. I don't deserve this. But I will throw my arms wide open and accept it. He is gracious, folks. More than any of us can imagine.

Take it all in. It's good.